This is life...

Everything is about politics. Its doesn't matter if you are good enough, but if you don't know how to play well in the situation, you will be left out. This is not a place for you to learn. Maybe I'm weird for liking someone that many people hate but if at there I can learn and improve myself, I don't mind.

I'm not that kind of people that love to socialize. I'm not that kind of people that know how to lobbying. Technically, I'm not good with politics. That's why I'm taking accountancy instead of political science. I'm not good with words but when I said something, it will be precise and sharp!

Team bonding always important. We are family there!

For debating, I never lose passion towards it. But I do lose passion towards the club. Too much politics in the club. Who said only government has bureaucracy? A small club like this also has. If I say Dungun is worse, this is more worse because a small club like this has a political affairs that worse than a big debate club in Dungun. After a couple years I'm trying to blend in, now I'm giving up. I'm not getting any better, my performance getting worse, and I never been recognize in the club.

I'm not asking for neither power nor position but I don't like to be left out. Is it because I'm not socialize enough? Or just because I'm not pretty enough to get the attention. I have no idea. Only they know the answer. But I thing I know, I'm always there to help the debate club when they need it. But since it looks like it doesn't worth anymore, I better quit now.

Before I been hurt more, before I will suffer more. One thing that I never regrets, they taught me how to communicate with people. How to have networking. I know some people in the club do have networking too, but I believe my ability is better.

Will miss our moments on the ferry. Rhetoricans!

My senior once said, 'You should keep her in the club. She has the potential.' Thanks for that appreciation but I guess, only you saw that. Not others. And I can't wait much longer till people notice me. I don't like the idea of lobbying yourself. I believe, if you are good and talented, people will notice that.

Something much more important, my academic comes first. No matter how much I love debate, study always come before it. Caused in my professional, academic and experiences comes before confidence. 

I know there are lots of time I said i want to quit, but I never do that. This time, I think I will. Insha Allah. I'm tired of the politics in the club and I'm tired of 'socializing' which that is not me. Let me just be a Debater but also a student. Maybe it sounds simple but that's enough compared to those who only know how to talk without knowing how to do works!

A step for healthy life.

When I determine to get that, I will work hard for that...
that's should explain everything that I did during my holiday. Suddenly I become so obsessed to lose some weight. Not even that, I also kinda obsessed to look healthy.
I am lucky cause my best friend also in the same track with me. Want to lose some unnecessary weight. LOL. So the first thing we did is back to the jogging track. It was hectic for at first caused its been a long time that I didn't jog but its getting easier after a week.
However, its kinda funny when we first jog caused we spent more time enjoying ourselves taking pictures compared to jogging..haha.

We do love taking pictures.haha

There also some pictures taken by us. But I think she took more pictures than I do that day. Well, its a well known fact that she loves taking picture, so its not a surprise anymore. Its just a fine day to hang out with a friend that you always can trust and with a nice environment. The beautiful beach gave me such a peaceful mind. Lucky me caused my hometown does have lots of beaches. Nice beaches that you can always enjoy its breeze.

There are some of my pic for that day.

At the end of my holiday, even I, myself am surprised with myself. A consistent work and motivation does give me some result. At least I'm not gaining any unnecessary weight during the holiday. Now, even the class already started, I'm still in the same mission. Want to break the minimum weight that I used stuck with. Since i don't really allocate time yet for jogging, but already start diet to reduce the unnecessary food taken. LOL. However, jogging is still in the 'to do' list.

Enjoy your life and never take it for granted.

I'm grateful for every blessing that I had in life. Been blessed with a loving family, surrounded by understanding friends and the best thing, been blessed with a healthy life! Thank you Allah for all the blessing you give me! Alhamdulillah. :)

I love my birthday..!!

I love my BFF!! So damn much!! You are the best!!
Among all those bullshits that happened in my life, I was lucky caused it haven't ruined my special day yet. It was my 22nd birthday, a week after that bullshit happens. A special thanks to my bestie aka Diba. She never forget to give me gift for my birthday. So far, I have lots of cute collection of gifts from her.

can u guess which one i got this year?? ;)

We been friends more than 10 years. Yeah, that's quite a long time. We are more than sisters. Basically she know how I am, and I also know how she is. Sometimes, she know more secrets about me than my own family members. Since I love those gifts so much, I bring them everywhere I go. 

I got cute teddy with chocs for my 20th birthday. The funny thing is, I wasn't letting my sis to touch that. Till one time, I really need to eat those chocolates before the ants take them from me. LOL. The next year, I got that cute smurf!!! I really love smurf so I'm so freaking happy when I got that and proud to show off to everyone my cute smurf!! haha.

isn't this so cute?? :D

For this year, I got unexpected gift. A necklace. I was thinking to buy the new one since I broke the only one I have. So when I got that, I was very happy. She's like reading my mind! Amazing!

it looks gorgeous rite?

I was speechless when I saw this. Thanks dear!! Thanks a lot Nas Adiba!! I will try not to break or lose this! It will always be with me anywhere I go. That's something I can promise. Something for sure! I don't know what else to say cause this post suppose to show my presents from my lovely BFF. Thanks again for everything. I always pray that our friendship will last till the last breath. Love you so much!