its been almost a year and half that i become a debater.yet i still not dare to call myself as a debater..the reasons are.. 1st: i lost in most of the tournament i went.. 2nd:i still not sure which speaker role i should take..so 1 thing for sure my role structure is suck.. 3rd: i don't really know how to do a deep analysis about the motion/the case that we are debating. 4th: sometimes i didn't make a case that what the motion is about.. n last but not least.. i really have problem with doing EXPLAINATION..and i really hate the word '1 liner'..haha.
but everything is quite okay now..sine i myself can the the improvement in me..however i still not satisfied with my performances..how i wish i can have a trainer to train me and everyday debate training...so that i can improve myself quickly..i just hate being a liability to my teammates.. just don't think its fair for them to set up all the case while all i did there was listening to them..
this year experience was better than last year.. i start the training with new title..as a new secretary for English Debate Team!! I know the works already waiting for me as soon i accept the responsibility..as i expected, i have to make paperwork to go to the tournament in Shah Alam.. Alamdulillah, everything went well..i dont really have problem with student affairs department in my university..unfortunately, i did have problems with my 'beloved' captain..looks like he left everything for me to settle..however, i should thanked him for all the experiences i went through..and i also thanked my juniors for showing me who they really r..n warned me who I'm dealing with, so that i can be more prepared..
suddenly i heard that we are going to Malaysia Debate Open (MDO)..n 1 thing for sure, im the one who's going to do the paperwork..with just 2 weeks left, i was like crazy to settle everything..plus the intensive training that we have to attend since its an international tournament...i proud with myself that i can face everything..what make things worse, the English debaters have to handle the booth during the carnival in the same week...but i thanked my co-captain very much for his help..we divide all the works because we don't have much time..n we still have classes to attend + intensive trainings + regular trainings + a booth..and there's a time i think i should quit debate...yet I'm proud to say that I'm still in debate team today!!
but i believe everything i go through today will pay off in the long run. Eventhough the week before going there was hectic but its was the best moment and the best experience ever in my life..the most fun tournament ever that I'd went.. I made friends with some Japanese, Koreans, Filipinos and people from Macau (even i did go against with team from Kazakhstan but i don't really like them..haha) n i also get closer with debaters from Malaysia since we are in the same community..so it all worth the hardship that we went through..
Unfortunate for us, as soon as we back from there...there's lots of test n assignments waiting for us..but that's a life of a student..the best thing is i just realize that my semester is going to end soon...n i have to work hard to ensure that i still in the dean's list..i won't give my sister any chance to blame debate for my suck result because she don't want me to join debate since the day i become apart of debate club..
i really hope i can improve myself n be in a level of what a debater should be..so that someday i will win something or at least break to octo final..
