Today in my life

Its been a long time since I open this blog again..

This blog already became my online diary that I allow those who are interested to read it..

Lately, I was proud of myself...Ignoring all the problems that I faced and still can smile and live my life like I have nothing to worry..Having people around you doesn't mean you can tell them all..I just don't want to annoy them with my problem cause I know they have their own to settle..and some of them are too busy to care about other people.

Today, I really miss my parents..especially my mom..Its already been 2 years that she passed away. There's no one to share the feeling.. Most of my friends still have their parents, so they don't really understand the feeling..The feeling of a son without his father, a daughter without her mom..

My mom is one of the motivations that I have to success in everything I do.. Every success in my academic is just because of her, and is dedicated to her..She is the best motivator for me..I know I'm not a good child, so academic is one of my way to make her proud of me..and so far, I did well on that..

However, lately I'm not motivated to study anymore.How I wish she was here and start her 'lecture' to me. I know I might don't like it but that will make me want to study better cause every time she lecture me, its kinda a challenge for me to be better. 

I miss the smile..the hug that I got every time I went home..the kiss whenever I did well..the love that can never be replaced.. I miss her so much.. I would do anything to feel that again. 

I love you, mom..I will try hard not to disappointing you and will try be a nice girl..will try to be the child that u are always proud of..you will always be apart of my life that I will never leave anywhere. 

I love them so much..